Monday, November 21, 2005

New News & "Old Best Friends"

OK, so I know it has been a very very very long time since I have last written, but when things change in my life (such as a move to another state) I sort of shut down, and I just kinda not do much until things in my life have settled a bit. It seems that even just writing e-mails and blog entries just take a whole lot of energy, very weird. So anyway, there's my excuse!

So when we first moved to Arizona, we lived with my parents who were gracious enough to take us in for three weeks while we searched for a house. So my life hasn't consisted of much but unpacking, decorating my house, catching up on my reading, and writing my book. "Pretty nice and relaxing" you are thinking right? Yeah, for the normal person it would be, but I am no ordinary person. I feel restless since I don't have a job, and we are missing the extra cash flow, so I am currently looking for a job, although that has caused me MUCH more stress. It is so pathetic, because in this job market, I am either over qualified, or under qualified, and I just am about done with the whole job hunting thing. I told Jamie I've figured out the solution:he just needs to make more money, so we can have the extra cash, and then I can relax and not feel bad about staying at home writing my book!! Sounds good to me! He says that maybe in a year, but right now I should get a job...hmph. I'll keep ya posted on the whole job thing. Although I am starting to think that the only job I am going to find is going to involve knowing the phrase "Welcome to McDonalds", although I hear that Walmart is always looking for door greeters...

OK so I have to tell you about my most exciting recent purchase. They have FINALLY released the original Pippi Longstocking movies on a 4 disc dvd set!! I about fell off the couch when I found it on Amazon.com. So for all of you other Pippi lovers (and lovers of Mr. Nillson), you know how I feel, and you can rejoice!!

Well I don't have anything really exciting to write at the moment, and I don't really have the energy to think about what I've been doing for the past two months, so I will stop here before I ramble incoherently. I will try to write more often, so that my entries are more exciting.

THE THINKING BLOT OF THE BLOG:
So having moved back to Arizona, I am now close to all of my old friends, and I have to say, it is sometimes like being in the Twilight Zone, so I am using this as the "Thinking Blot of the Blog", because this has been my observation since I moved back.

So maybe some of you have childhood friends, and then, like myself, you get married and move away, and then at some point in time you move back close to your friends. Well this is what I have recently done. But let me tell you, when I moved to California, where nobody knew me and I had no "Best friends", it was tough, because I was used to having that, and I would miss my best friends, who were still in Arizona. Now that I have moved BACK to Arizona three years later, and I am around my friends, it's like I am in the Twilight Zone, because (now stay with me here) it seems that when you leave, you expect everyone you left behind to be frozen in time, or in a bubble or time capsule somewhere, waiting on your return, not meeting new people or making new friends. But when you return, everyone seems the same, but then they introduce you to other people (who are supposedly their friends, but how can that be when I am there ONLY friend?! Right?...) as "this was my childhood best friend," or, "this was my best friend growing up..." Notice the past tenses? Yeah. Feels very VERY weird, probably the closest thing to an out of body experience that I could ever imagine. So then it's even worse because, say, when I moved to California, I didn't have any friends, but at least I started fresh, making new friends, and people would introduce me as "This is my friend Sarah...". But coming back to Arizona, I already have friends, but they have "moved on" in a sense, and I am now a "past" friend, or "used to be" best friend, and they all have new friends, so then it's like, "well where in the world do I fit in?" I know they are my friends but...Oh I can't even explain it...it's just WEIRD. That all probably made no sense, but I thought I would put it out there.

This is the old-young-post-child-pre-elderly-used-to-have-best-friends-but-now-has-who-the-heck-knows-what Sarah, signing out!

Disclaimer to any of my "Childhood" best friends who even read this blog: I just want you to know I have had an awesome time spending time with all of you recently...

Oh who am I joking nobody reads this blog.